let me forewarn you, this is not a cheery post.
well, it isn't even a long post anyway.

for my whole life, it's been not enough.
Not _____ enough.
fill in the blanks with the appropriate words.
good, hardworking, clever, persistent, nice, cool, studious, friendly, loyal, aware.
been there, done that.

Fuck it.
Pull yourself together.
You'll forever be an underdog loser (in your my own very eyes anyways) your whole life.
Make something out of your shit of a life.

Parents
Friends
School
Schoolwork
Band.

No, it's not so hard, these 5 things, in addition to eat, sleep, bathe, breathe, pee, poo.
Not that hard is it?
Shannon can't you fucking handle your own life.
Fucking grow up.
Sober up.
stop being a fuck-up.
Suck it up.
Go up
Be on top.
I will win this fucking war called "MY STUPID LIFE"
stop making empty promises to yourself.
Print this out & stick it up on your wall but "blanco" out the fwords.
Yes shannon, i mean YOU.

Just do it.

Nike.

Don't care anymore lah!!!!!!!!#$W%&^*(%^#(*$^$*&*(&)*+_(&^*%^%W^*(%&$#^ &*

serveral funny things today.

i was walking home, and i desperately needed to pee, and i was like.. a few steps more, a few steps more! GOGOGO! But then the rainfall didn't help to ease the urgency i felt that i needed to pee. Like watching it rain i was like omg. So i closed my eyes and walked across the overhead bridge. Till i walked into the railing on the other end. It was silly. Then i was super urgent, i was running/hopping/walking weirdly home. yes ok. stupid lah.

Then i had to call J1s to ask if they were interested in joining band. Two girls could only speak chinese, so i almost asked the girl to join CO man. I asked my mom to translate for me. then the girl started laughing at my chinese. Whatever, man.
GAWD.
Before i called the 2nd girl (name looked chinese so i decided to play it safe) i called wei liang to ask what orchestra was in chinese. And violá! HEY PRESTO, it is..
*drumroll*
Yue Tuan.
It was super funny. She tried talking in english, i tried conversing in mandarin. Really, really, that made me laugh.
Then, my stomach ached.
AWW.


that's all.

stomachache.
today i got bored, so i ATTEMPETED knitting.
fucking fucks.
I can't believe the trouble i'm going through to get a HP dark mark bag.

i'm on the bloody feckin verge of giving up.
instead of 'soothing' me, quite the contrary, it's giving me fecking high blood pressure.
OK. i tried calming down.
The vids are either doing it too damn fast, too confusing, or just too.. euggh. they're all saying the same thing. X thing, then the string between them, then pull out and get something off the needle with all the dang stitches. When i pull it out i get NOTHING.
ass lah.
OK. i think i better go do yoga or something.
At first, this was immensly amusing, but now its just.. EUGGH.
GOODBYE.
AAGRH.

after a pretty long absense, i think no one cared though.
and you shouldn't, btw.
my life is BORRRING. really.
This year i must study very hard.
i need a resolution list on my desk pronto.
Oh well...

I just wanted to post a couple of songs on my playlist, that never fails to make me smile, even though some of them have semi-sad/ depressing bit of lyric, but carry a happy tune, so the irony of that makes me smile, in a weird twisted way, or just that the melody's WAY too catchy for it's own good. Dancing and singing along to them like a maniac is also good.

It's weird, i'm getting very into disco songs from the 80s. HAHAHA.

Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go - Wham! :D

Umbrella - Rhianna (i've been slagging off this one a great deal, but i have to admit, it's good, and the bit where it goes "said i'll always be your friend, took an oath imma stick it out till the end" is so aww-worthy)

Don't Dream It's Over - Crowded House

You Got The Music In You - The New Radicals

Happy Together - The Turtles

I Get By With A Little Help From My Friends - The Beatles

Here Comes The Sun - The Beatles (fyi, this was heath ledger's funeral song.)

You Think I Don't Care (But I Do) - Jack McManus

Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley

D.I.S.C.O - Ottawan

Viva La Vida - Coldplay

California - Phantom Planet

Suspended From Class - The New Pornographers (this is a bit.. mellow? but really good too, really catchy, and the bit that goes "i should be suspended from class, i don't know my elbow from my arse" gets me everytime)

Feels Like I'm In Love - Kelly Marie

Take On Me - A-ha

Do Ya Think I'm Sexy - Rod Stewart (this is just really really funny. see, the reason you laugh, is precisely because i bet NO ONE, i mean NO ONE thinks he's sexy. good melody though.)

You Spin Me Round (Like A Record) - Dead or Alive (from the word record, you know it's old.)

Wouldn't It Be Nice - The Beach Boys

Hot 'N' Cold - Katy Pery (yeah.)

A Place In My Heart - David Jordan (this guy looks like a cross between Michael Jackson and.. i dunno, some other weirdo, no offence.)



-these just remind me of when i was younger. most of them are just for laughs. i sound old. WOW.-
Pokemon theme song (i scream and jump along to this one. When no one's watching, that is.)

I'm Blue (Da Ba Dee) - Eiffel 65 (HAHA)

Barbie Girl - Aqua

Dr. Jones - Aqua

Calcutta - Dr. Bombay (this one weirds me out in a funny way)

Trouble - Shampoo (GOGO POWER RANGERS!)

Macarena - Los Del Rio (LMAO)

Mambo No. 5 - Lou Bega

Sex Bomb - Tom Jones (ROFLCOPTER)
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Oh yeah, and if anyone had the 'If you are what you say you are, a superstar" in their heads, from the Victoria Secrets ad (me too) it's by Lupe Fiasco. That dude is awesome.. "Kick Push" and "The Instrumental" was TEH SHIZ. word.

... why am i talking like that?

next time i'm posting about songs that get me high and that i like playing air guitar to/really mellow stuff that's awesome for thinking and introspecting.
either that or very weird/funny youtube videos.

this was not a blog entry. Just a list of funny/awesome songs. Yeah. List isn't complete, but i'm not bothering to complete it.

holy shit.
er. wait, let me rephrase that.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

ok, now on to the subject proper.
holy shit man.
i just had an UBER weird dream.
Ok. so the ABRSM piano exam was in like a HUGE recital hall.
And i was about to have my exam next.
BLEH.
Then, my mind blanked out.
SHIT.
So, anyway, i went up on stage, then i forgot to tell them my exam piece, so just like improvised some weird stuff. But it sounded ok, twasn't THAT bad. But it was sorta weird, and VERY embarrassing. After i did the exam piece, there was nervous clapping, and some laughter from the crowd. Then i forgot what.

I think i got very embarrassed (DUH) and then ran off to find my friend, which just started ROFL-ing. Then after awhile, the announcer, who was suppossed to be some famous dude, got me (apparently cause i was most memorable?!) and some randomer to go up on stage to do miming to his poem/song (i forgot) and then idk, but it rhymed. haha.

Then my pants frayed and got caught up in stage, which had a few bits of chipped wood, so they got stuck. And after thats i went around stage and tried to get those bits of frayed jeans out. (yes, i know jeans don't fray in that way in RL)

Then, the guy said, that i just released an album with a firend? Then made us sing (wtf) then my voice went hoarse cause i had a sore throat.

Time to give up that dream of being a famous guitarist =/

Weird dream eh?

anyway, HOHOHO, merry christmas. (and a happy new year) :D

my fam sucks. so many empty promises. this is on of the worst christmas' ever.

as of late, my com has been immensely screwy.
Can't go on MSN cause of some bloody error that won't fix, and i can't login to so many sites because of "security issues" (laptop's BS is acting up again...)

I've so far, been holed up at home, and with the immense boredom, i have taken to fancy "The Little Nonya". Now, don't slag me off for this! It is really interesting, learning about the peranakan culture (maybe more interesting than the peranakan museum even.. (DUH)) I wonder if real life peranakan culture is that cruel (as like in the show) because i remember when going to Malacca (root of all peranakan-ness, i think) we went to some shophouse museums and they kinda freaked me out. Servants had their own sleeping rooms, had to prepare elaborate feasts, were always inferior, etc. I just thought for a second, then brushed it off.

Now, what if it was still the era of the 1930s? Well, alike that anyway.. What if i was a servant? Would i be constantly chastised, scolded etc? And if i was some master, hope i wouldn't be some evil ass shit then.

Then again, when i get bored in front of the telly, whilst watching, i sometimes mute the sound, and make my own stupid sound effects so that it makes it funnier, or something, or when there's a baddie. Like making fart sounds, doing synopsis-es in weird voices etc.

Ok, but tbh the show is kinda preposterous. Like the same woman acting as Juxiang, and um YueNiang and her mom?! I mean that is really laughable, but oh well. I wish there were more complex characters, not simply just the good is good, bad is bad, etc. I think the woman who's that Pierre Png's wife is an interesting character than could be expanded a lot more in terms of her emotions, POV, etc. Oh well.
I'm rambling on.

Oh, the help (auntie) left to visit her fam for 3 weeks. I'm mostly in charge of the house and dog and bro when dad and mom are working now. It's tough work. I think i'm becoming an OK cook. The other day i made french onion soup, and chocolate mousse and scones. I'm thinking of making ratatouille soon. Hah. Hope i don't make too much of a mess.

Wow, i sound like a really shit old, senile person, man. CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP.
Oh yeah. When going to get clothes today (mom had 40% off at esprit) and getting jeans, i was commenting on how the jeans i was trying was sticking to my legs (hate that) so i mused out loud and said "wow i feel like a fat chicken wrapped in cling foil", then thought it was funny, and laughed. Then i think i musta freaked the people outside, waiting for the changing rooms.

Oh yeah. I picked up a wallet the other day, with a man's IC and credit cards. His plight was really pitiful. He got pushed down from the 2nd to 1st floor of the bus by accident(apparently someone stood up and was pushing his way, and made the old man fall)An ambulance came to get him (it was serious) Then, he got pick pocketed of his wallet. He said there was money, but it's lost now, but was still so grateful to me for getting it back for him.. I thought it was nice. But his plight... I was almost shy to accept the chocolates from him, but he said i must. Luckily his wallet contained HP numbers. If not...
Oh well. what evil people there are now......


anyway... Don't parents have the natural knack to get on your nerves sometimes?
Just a general comment.

Wow. My life is really boring.

Greetings to all!

WHASSUP!

Class chalet was pretty cool. Only wish more of the class was there! But i really got to know ling ling, melissa, pamela and tasvita better, they really are cool people! (:

Oh yeah, sorry carin and lesley, that i couldn't make it to your parties. I really was intending to go! I even brought my guitar to play happy birthday and made cards:(

Anyway, if i you only learn one thing from this post, learn this:
ALOHA LOYANG SUCKS.
Big time!

On the first day, we had steamboat. Cleaned up the chalet, by flooding it with water. Euggh. The immense level of dirt inside was absolutely dreadful. I shrudder at the thought... YUCK.
The steamboat was good though! After that, we went to Changi Airport so liling could take pictures with mickey and just to go out for a bit. I still maintain my stand - terminal 3 SUCKS. It's so empty. The first time i was there, i thought it was a budget terminal tbh. Then, Agnes, I and melissa's clique went to get drinks, and headed out to the waterfront, and sat and talked, then went to mcdonalds till about 4. We then went back to the chalet, then the others woke up, and started playing polar bear, and uno. In uno, it was like stella and i had colour curses or something. ALL ( i mean all) my cards were blue, and stella had no blue. So funny. We kept sabotaging each other.

On the 2nd day, i contracted some weird form of a stomach upset, which still continues to today. crikey. We watched 'Wild Child' which was pretty cool. It was fun seeing emma roberts playing a bitch. HAHA. Then it was the bbq. I tried (and failed) to start the fire, but to no avail, even with so many firebombs or whatever you call that. Stella was the saviour of the day - with only just one firebomb(?) and loads of skill, the fire got started. The class parked ourselves around the fire, but mainly for the otah, the hotdogs, crabsticks, prawns, and the chicken wings (which were awesome!) At night, i played cards with lihuan, fiona, and xingying. We were originally intending to not sleep, but we caved at about 4am.

Then the next day, we pack our backs, checked out, and i went home and slept for a whole day. When i got up, my stomach killed me.

Anyway, i've been doing really weird things these few days, playing the air guitar in my living room and jumping around like a nut, then sweating up a storm. Oh well.

Future options for class outings that we discussed:
Ms heng's house somewhere this year, or early jan (might happen)
Some resort in sentosa - we have the beach, cycling, loads of activities, and pubs (prob in jan in 2010, when everyone is of age :/) NOT ALOHA LOYANG
Maybe Costa Sands ok now for photos, which were koped from melissa's facebook :/














my head looks like it's about to break.




wtf? why am i leaning forward!?




agnes is mad white.


haha, neoprints. It felt like secondary school for a mo again...




so colourful O.o

i think i was like the chief bottle opener or something, for the chalet. LOL.
P.S. i think i have small eyes, and when i smile, my right eye goes smaller. :( lol.